DILEMMA:Waste or Taste ????

 I was typing and still didn't know what I was about to post when it suddenly struck  me like all my brainwaves always do (which aren't the brainy ones you may think of, but simple truths which may 

leave you dumbfounded!!) . I have wasted my holidays!!! True, holidays are for fun, to relax and enjoy.That doesn't mean not even looking at the direction where your school books lay, that too when you are in the period when you are promoted from 9th to 10th std!!!!

HALT!HALT! put on the brakes,madam!Why are you getting so scared??What's wrong in spending holidays like holidays are supposed to?? You weren't just sleeping throughout the holidays....True,you didn't touch that 10th std math textbook(yuck) but that doesn't mean you lazed around!!You read more thrillers in one month than sachin tendulkar's total amount of centuries!!Sometimes you helped your grandmother before she could scream and you have been working hard on your blog, so CHILL! You haven't committed a crime, YET. This was the other part of me.

Welcome everybody! I am popularly known as 'SEMI' among my friends and although I didn't name myself that I knew that it was the perfect word for me.I like most people am two inside and somewhere in the middle of the two paragraphs outside!!!Particularly in this post I am going to confuse myself in the dilemma : did I UTILIZE my holidays or not?? WAIT! why the hell should we UTILIZE an holiday?? did I ENJOY my holidays or not?See I confused it again!!

Coming back to the point, however I justify my loafing around, it is WRONG! All my classmates (well not all) have gone for math and various other tuitions and have finished the syllabus for the next year and  4 guys (no nerds!) have even joined the great IIT coaching and have finished their 11th portions. I accept with a sane mind that I couldn't have finished everything like them but should have at least revised  the completed portions.

Dude! cut the crap! Once an idiot no one measures the scale of foolishness! Similarly once I have decided to study  why should I count the pages?! OK. Coming to my point, what do I gain by studying all the chapters the teachers are going to cover?!The poor teachers surely wont like us shouting all the answers at her and won't the classes become even more boring?The element of surprise and interest is the only way classes become interesting!

STOP! How much more ignorant can I get??! I am grown up now, even if my other part doesn't think like that the teacher would.I am not coming to tell that mugging before the teacher is right but, dude! there is something called preparation!!In 10th std the teachers just don't have the time to go deep enough and they leave it to us to explore further.....so I have indeed wasted 2 months of my life reading novels and on the net...:-(

GET A LIFE! all I am doing is getting sad with myself......It is NOT a waste of time.The books I have read are all courtroom novels and blogging as improved my writing skills and typing speed!! What is wrong in reading courtroom novels as I am improving my chance of becoming a lawyer!Nothing is a waste of time unless Aimed to achieve nothing!OK my mood is getting worse as I getting more philosophical........I have learnt to cook or at least eat well with my aunt's help and I have constantly stayed in touch with my FRIENDS which makes all the time worthwhile! I have visited crores of temples and have developed my Hindi watching Bollywood films and doing some things only I can do during holidays!

POINTS taken:

• I Didn't study sufficiently enough to satisfy myself.....
• I have connected with my friends
• I have blogged! :-)
• Courtroom novels aren't that bad (but surely I am not fancying that it would help me better as it will make reality look very bad ;-) ) 
• I did waste my time but not my taste
• I did help my grandmother! (sometimes only.....)

It is accepted now that I could have touched my books so I will surely do it ( I have a week more, which is sufficient enough) but that doesn't undermine the fact that enjoying your holidays your natural way is never BAD!! Waste is never the word appropriate to use on your holidays but taste shouldn't be the only factor to loaf around!!Equating it by studying more than your level in the last week isn't such a bad option as it makes tyou carry fresh memories of studies and evergreen memories of FUN!!!!

A challenge with 'GOD'

A week ago I went to shirdi temple where sai baba was born. I have never analysed my religious views seriously as I thought I wasn't old enough and to be more frank I really didn't bother about any supernatural powers over me. I am more like me when I pray to god during hardships (like exams!!) .

Now, I wanted shirdi  to be more of a holiday than spiritual eye turner and my grandmother didn't help my cause.She was constantly nagging  me to do this and that for god.Then came the bad hotels and huge Que which I had to cross to meet the god himself(or his idol).Maybe if you were so religious you would have been awestruck seeing the huge statue of god , not me. I was thoroughly irritated as I could have seen that in the television screen outside the temple, even in my house as they daily broad cast sai baba's aarthi on T.V.
So, the vicious me was turned on. When I went to touch his foot.....I thought "GOD! what is the use worshiping u in huge numbers? what will be the great difference if I worship you or not???! I demand an explanation, why should I love you , hate you ?? who the hell are you?? how can I believe in you?"
After this I felt as if I had a huge burden of my shoulders.I went back to my congest double bedded room containing six people and carried on with my tour. The next day we left for nashik where we where planning to visit more temple(aargh).
I woke up the morning and went to have some breakfast.Suddenly something happened in my stomach.....the perfume in the restaurant was smelling like poison to me and after eating my first piece of dosa I threw up everything. That was the beginning of a long day where I puked everything that passed my mouth even water.I knew it was indigestion but.....something told me there was more to it.As the day passed I couldn't help but remember my challenge or whatever with Mr.sai baba!!.
Back in hotel I was  weak and tired.....my grand mom kept pestering me that I didn't pray to saibaba for a long time. Like hell! There were more crowd there than for any IPL match and u expect me to keep staring at his face or something?!
Then the idea hit me, it was rather lame actually, but I was desperate no tablet was working , so I decide to woo the god as I didn't have anything to lose.
Again in my mind voice(I will never talk, I'm not that crazy!) I told god ,"ALMIGHTY! you are the best! You created the universe and also by mistake created me, this idiot!!who am I to question you! I believe you , but how can I prove it to you?!" and blah! blah! blah!.I thought I had done the right thing.

Unfortunately, my stomachache only worsened and they even decide to admit me in hospital! My grand mom decided to not visit Elora caves the next day for my sake. We both decide to stay in shirdi itself.You would remember me stating that my grand mom was   crazy of gods, so this crazy women couldn't just stay outside the temple when she was so near to it , so she forced me to come along with her to the temple again.(!!!)
This time I was rather tired and didn't groan much about the huge line, actually I liked doing something rather than nothing.......I think you can feel the slow change in me,right? So at the end of the endless Que I became all sensitive and charged up (even with the stomach ache). I felt eerily calm after visiting sai baba this time and I felt god inside me! Don't think its some saint talking its just the feeling one experiences after really believing in god for a second.........I had new hope to fight my stomach ache and I knew it would go.I found that minute that I needn't have to prove anything about my belief, all I had to was believe it first!
After this wonderful discovery of life , my stomach ache was solved and I was back in my train. As always , my problem was solved I decided to leave god theories behind and concentrate on the life he gave.I knew that I needn't worship him like everyone or abuse him.I just had to acknowledge him from time to time ( that time is obviously a problem!).I figure that this relationship was perfect between god and me.My friend gave  me a call and asked, " So babe what's ur take on sai baba?" 
I simply replied,"Don't you dare mess with him!"
(If u think my view has changed about god you are wrong read the thing carefully again. I always pray during hardships only!)
This is a real life incident with a bit of fiction.,,,,,,,

SUSPENDED.............

I am caught in a DARK MIST..
am I really missed???
GOD!can you give this tale a twist??!!
as I am really PISSED!!


YA, to be honest I made a mistake
I wanted to give my skl a miss
but I didn't know what was at STAKE
OBVIOUSLY no one will expect a dismiss!


I didn't realize that it did happen
When I did, no one cared what did happen
ALL they wanted me to do was ACCEPT
so they never even bother to SUSPECT


am I really that bad ??
or is it that everyone else are so MAD???
CAN"T they understand that every wrong word spoken
CAN leave a heart BROKEN????


now, this called behaving dumb
taking away all our freedom
pushing us to boredom 
& calling it the route to STARDOM!!!!!!


Now,what I really care about is 
whether anyone cared to find my .......
WHEREABOUT................................................