2010

                2010 Abridged............................

 What a year has it been! When I was younger I used to wonder " what will it be like when I am in 10th std?" and Cool! I get to feel it now! Its not hard.....yet. I can't believe this! I have found that I have had max fun in the year - @)!).... ie 2010!!!!!!!!

Looking back, diving into nostalgia I have realized that I have watched the most no. of movies this year , been a better couch potato and a mouse potato?! I have started blogging and have add my first trip to north India!! To make my friends happy I started listening to English music and now I am a  decent fan.....

Actually I gotta thank my friends for more......forcing me to watch STAR WORLD which truly deserves a blog post ..... I am a happy addict now. Also kudos to Daksha , Narayanan and Poornima who are the few who have been awesome and kind supporters of my blog. Also I am very happy that we all have met up for almost all occasions this year- be it a Deepika's film or Christmas or the useless project day We have gone out!!!!

2010 had a blasty diwali ,   holy dussehra and a merry Christmas for me.

Wait a minute. What I am writing may sound like the end credits.........I dunno why I am very uninspired to write blogpost nowadays.....I have had millions of ideas but I just can’t continue and develop. I am getting stagnating and boring. So I have decided to stop writing for 3 months at least till the exams’ end.

Jumping back to the topic  2010 saw my facebook account being de activated , a new one getting created and me getting more responsible while  adding friends. I had a short stint in ibibo to and it sux! A bad copy of facebook , zapak  and what else not’s.

I luv the movies in tamil this year. From Superstar’s block buster Enthiran to Universal hero Kamal’s  Manmadan Ambu to Surya’s  succeeding Singam and powerful Rakthacharitra to the rise of Karthi and Arya I can see only positives!( Flops of vijay too have contributed to the positives :D )

I also like the fact that bollywood films fared badly. I know I’m evil , but they got what they deserved. Seriously English film makers have to also look at something more than 3d animation and Justin bieber should stop wearing nail polish :P

Indian cricket team has gone from strength to strength to become the no.1 test team and its wins against Australia and new Zealand has made it invincible. More good news , my favorite team Chennai super Kings won the Airtels champions league and ipl . Who can forget Fifa 2010 ? Shakira’s  waka waka , Paul the octopus , Spain and Germany were the highlights of FIFA.

Sachin Tendulkar crossed many landmarks this year. He’s scored the most no.of runs in this calendar year , crossen many run marks , hit a double hundred in odi for the 1^st time and hit 50 test centuries! God!

A main highlight of this year for me  is undoubtedly my blog and Master chef Australia.-the latter has infused a great deal of excitement about food for me and my goal in life has shifted to tasting every type of food on earth! Specially George’s bald head , Matt preston’s pink face and Gary’s sweet attitude has created lots of butterflies in my stomach. Even though Adam won I like Callum better......the various mistakes he’s made are so awkward! :P

 Personally for me this year, I have made lots of good friends to name a few:

Shivani- maybe the most important influence in my life for now.

             I’m mad that she hasn’t contacted me for the past 5 days!!!

Emaya- We have an awesome relationship going J

             She has to stop being possessive :P

Diya – What a neighbor! I <3 u sis!

           Stop being polite!

Medha – The funniest partner I have shared space with! The best! <3

               Stop those giggles..........actually DON’T

Poornima- Our friendship has grown more mature and strong over the phone

                  However my bill is increasing!

Akshath – Kickass Friend! :P

               Stop swearing.....no I mean .... just a joke....SWEAR!

Ritesh – A nerdy guy.....wait this was the positives!

              A nerdy guy :P

Arjun  - My masterchef hacker :P

              I hate ur new voice ;)

Narayanan – more a fb buddy :P

                    Come online more often ...........what happened to that story?

Daki – Awesome humor sense

           But don’t tell jokes :P

    I know that I have excluded many but the following are the IMPROVED or NEW relationships of 2010!


sorry!! I almost forgot an IMPORTANT person!
Akshu!! - She's Shorter than me and hard to say.......but has more fun than me self
                 She gets bored easily......but I am there to solve it! :)

False Alarms

There is an aspect which I am popular for in my school – more popular than my blogging and that is breaking my bones! Actually my family -which includes my parents, me and my bro(younger than me), are popular for it! ;)

One of the reasons I could not give an earlier post is due to this fracture threat! Threat?

You would ask….heeheee; well I will start from the beginning …………which is 6 years back, may 2004…….

The Flash BACK

I'm not that cute! ;)

Till that day Semi didn’t know anything about the word fracture, this should not be taken in the wrong way, ie, that she had a bad vocabulary or that she didn’t listen during science class (which maybe true…partly) it must just be accepted that she just didn’t know….

Moving on, she had only got hurt in her head some 8 times till then (in the 9 odd years she lived ) that too due to bad driving by old grand fathers , bad leg eye co ordination in 2^nd grade and generally ignorant seniors who bang the door on your head by mistake . Just the things you cant avoid!

Ok, cutting the flashback for the flashback and jumping into THE FLASHBACK ……

It was a summer holiday, which meant as a gonna be 5^th grader and already a tomboy, Semi was supposed to be playing with her elder brother’s (cousin) friends. So she took the toughest path and decided to play football with those barbarians. Seeing that she couldn’t help kicking her own foot when she tried to kick the ball the boys made her the goalkeeper.

They never brought the ball her side! Even if they did a ‘defender’ in front of her kicked it back! She thought of having a fistfight with them, when the ball came to….her! She tried valiantly to catch it but being the shortest kid in the district didn’t do her any help. No one mocked her but she was too embarrassed and so decided to help them by bringing back the ball which had already run off through the main road to the other lane…..

Bro called her but she didn’t listen, she took the ball fast and while returning through the main road she waved with the ball and they all waved back…! Wait. Was there some worry in their waves? Wha….BANG!

She was later carried back by her bro, with semi consciousness ( =D )  A motorcycle had banged into her hand but fortunately it was just an hairline crack….with some bruises.

                           x---------------------------------------------x

So that guys was the story of my first fracture. So why is Semi getting all nostalgic and posting this funny nonsense? Not just because she loves you people and want to share her privileged nonsense with you or because she is guilty of writing depressed stuff….

It is because of False alarms!

I always know beforehand when I am getting a fracture….like an instinct. A premonition! No one dare doubt me….after at least 5 years jam-packed with at least 1 9 – 20 fracture in my hands alone No one has a right to! [Sprains and ligament tears not included] Why do I always get diverted? Ok Back on track, I know it like some people know their fevers.

It always starts when someone tells “Semi how many fractures have you had?” or when they say,” Hey Fracture innum fracture pannaliya?” [Haven’t you fractured your hand yet?] Or a new trend for the past 1 year....every vaikunda eykadesi ,an occasion where you are supposed to stand in a long line to cross a doorway called as “the steps to heaven” [sorgavasal]

So this week where Friday was “the” day I knew for sure that I was gonna break a bone I started getting minor accidents or false alarms.

1^st false alarm

December 13,

Somewhere between 6.00 to 7.00

It was my friend’s b’day the next day. So we bought a gym ball for her. I was carrying the huge gift and sitting awkwardly in the 2 wheeler I traveled......then my mom did a foolish thing. She tried to squeeze her way between a bus and a bridge’s arch which were both fatal...

My leg hit the bridge thingy and down I went with the ball. My mother was very panicky and asked me with a concerned voice,” Nothing happened to the gift no kanna?”

It was not much just a small scratch and some pain

2^nd false alarm

December 15,

Between 12.40 to 1.00

Emaya, Shivani, me and tanu went to get emaya’s lunch bag. Emy was pretty angry with me for romantic reasons J  she was going pretty fast and I tried catching up with her when BANG!

I hit my hip on the staircase’s edge and fell down with pain. I was floating in pain and asked tanu to call the teacher and wasted her lunch period. The teachers panicked but I didn’t. When I checked my hip it had an ugly blood clot. Nevertheless it was just a clot and I couldn’t afford to tense my parents for that.

Even now when I touch it or do something quick it pains but its just a clot.

3^rd and final one

December 16

Must be between 2.00 to 3.30

This became almost true. I can’t explain how but I got hurt in my left wrist very badly and was very sure it was a fracture. Even now I have that mild doubt.....

My usual doc is out of town so I went to the best in town. That meant a long wait to go inside ( 1 hr 7 min) 2 min check up , then off to the x ray room where I waited for 25 mins and got stuck with an uncle next to me who took my calm demeanor to be a grant to accuse me of acting . Finally after waiting for 30 minutes more to give submit my x ray to him and seeing that the doc was busy chatting with his friends on yahoo messenger (old guy) I didn’t get convinced that he cared about me.

So I have a sore hand which seems to have very irritatingly red color but which is not BROKEN.

How to end this post now?

These things maybe false alarms or not but when I had 1 premonition something may go wrong I got 3 accidents. This was because of my negative thinking but in another mood I may call it my mom's bad driving skills, my friend's anger and the third a mystery. You caught me in a good mood!

byebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebye

yours un broken handedly 

SEMI

                                                                  

Rude and Crude

Bad times are good in one way. They make you see the mistakes you have been doing for SO long ,like an idiot, without even noticing it! In the past few weeks I have learnt what people actually think about me, through the numerous unpleasant encounters , fights , separations and other disasters.....

 [ seriously! ALL these things happened in FEW weeks!]

I never felt comfortable uttering 'Hi's! and "bye's" and always tried to skip the formalities as smoothly as possible...which I am not good at =D .So, my plan flops and I end up sounding rude : | !! For example:

friend: Hi semi!!!!!!!!!!! sup? 

me: why did you call?

 * FLOP*

friend: Semmmmmii!

(before she finishes the H)

me: what happened in master chef yesterday?

During good times she may take the  bait , but in bad times

friend: You freak! you wont tell Hi and won't let the other person say hi! All you care is about master chef! You don't even COOK watching it, you just talk about the yucky details of it like the MEAT!

[ excuse her.....she's veg :( ] 

                                                OR

When I call them- 

Friend: hello

Me:Hello, may I speak to XYZ?

( that is the only opening  Dialogue I know) heehee

Friend: What a friend are you ?! You don't even recognize my voice!

another case: 

Friend : Hello 

As she would kill me If I  use my only comfortable line. I say

me: XYZ! What are the tests do we have for next week?

I get 

Friend: You blunt idiot! Tell HI!

me: I don't like telling it!

Friend: Then Bye!

I hope that you see the problems I face in the form of niceties! The Magic words are an another important problem I face. At least they can't demand them from me....but I hate it when they are SO polite.

The Caramel Popcorn Episode:

Once upon a time, one week ago =P my Friends and I went for some hindi film which I thought I wouldn't understand.Although boring, I loved the film mostly because I could understand it!!Truthfully speaking it had more english words than a tamil song! So, till the interval all was well.

the thing is too sweet!

Unfortunately after it the food arrived. There came the yummy nachos and salsa <3 , coke and........the popcorns.I was watching the film with so much concentration [ much more than I would spend on math and physics periods] that I didn't realize that it was caramel ones. 1 pop in the mouth later I quietly placed it under my seat ;) . 

On the other hand my polite friends where too polite( I was sitting in between them)  and couldn't decline it as they thought they would hurt the host. So, there ensued a sorry struggle to finish the tubs.....Now, lets start naming these friends as it is getting more complicated. Sincere Shivani and Happy Hamsini where sharing the caramel popcorn tub and didn't like it. Darling Diya had cheese popcorns and liked having caramel ones.Seeing these 2 struggle she offered to have the caramel ones.Reluctantly they accepted.

The sub plot should have ended here and I should have been left to concentrate on the movie, but politeness creeped in and our Shivani started feeling 'guilty' thinking  Diya didn't like it.


So, she forced her to have some cheese and started struggling again with the caramel ones! phew! I should also mention that happy hamsini was dragged into this =P So every few minutes the tubs moved in front of me and I gave up trying to understand the film......Few may argue that this was a good move as the movie sucked from thereon....but that's not my point. My hindi enjoying experience (!) was abruptly ended because of the words, "please " , "sorry" and "thank you"

Boomerang

I didn't care much about my character until yesterday when bad times were over and worst times started.My biggest inspiration left me and I started to feel insecure and was rather emotionally weak.....In that off guard moment I replicated my weakness in the form of......hell! I am telling it! I cried like a weakling in front of my mum!! =O

I desperately needed advise,some cajoling and consoling AND all my mother did was LAUGH!! She said that I was too emotional (me!) and sensitive & had to move on in life.That was the moment when I realized that what she was trying to convey was correct but the way was too crude and rude...........it was like looking at a mirror.That was when I realized how mean I was.

I remembered the times I have looked at someone and said the ugly truth in the ugliest way.Hurting everybody with both my hand and my tongue- telling how slow they were or how nerdy they were- teasing their height ,weight and might!- their individuality , style and everything!

The most astounding thing is that no one has ever rudely replied back.......:'( that is why I am writing this.......I am so sorry for who I am, I will surely change just give me time!

yours naughtily

Semi =D                                     

Fearing a future without YOU.....

My mentor is leaving me next Friday. This is the message, I have been trying to convey this for the past 6 hrs but have done it with no success.Maybe because I can still cannot believe the fact......I will not believe it till the last second....Why does my life get always stuck in such turmoils? WHY?

Maybe because everything was too sweet , like the Utopian concept she explained during nationalism in Europe.....life will have to move on , I understand....but why is she going NOW? Leaving me just before my final step- the final examination after which I will move on to another school! I am maybe too selfish but so are the hundreds of students who are studying under her and so are the thousand who studied under her.

It was so good! From last year I haven't put one foot wrong, because of the path she carved for me. When I got the highest mark this semester I could only feel the gratitude.....I didn't even tell her a proper thank you. I can clearly remember the envy of the other section students when our class explained the classes with her! God is too evil, why can't we experience some fun??

What is SO special about her classes you may ask.It is my duty to explain.

• Stories - The last time someone hears a story from a teacher must go back to the lower primary levels, but our class is (going to be was soon) lucky to hear some stories from her.She mostly starts or end our class with 10 minutes of stories! If I explain those stories it would become an entirely different post, so I'll run through it. Her stories ranges from the hare and the tortoise with a twist to what the earth would be like in a 70 years....I promise to explain the stories later [ ;) ]                                                                                       hare and tortoise with a twist!           

• Discussions- What really happened in 26/11? Is the CWG so bad as shown? Should we care really what Obama has to tell about India? If you have any query about any matter we discuss it  in  the class! Miss usually supports India but also accepts it if she is wrong! Isn't that a wonder? Although I always seem to be accepting with her views......

• Other subjects- How many teachers even think about other subjects except their own?? Miss does! In fact , instead of just giving 10 mins free for preparing for a different subject she explains the subject by herself! I still remember the way she explained biology when we had an understanding problem with our new teacher and also the poem which explains about the cross roads in life! You wouldn't believe it, her new interpretation of a line made us all gain 2 marks in that test!

• Handling- She hasn't yelled at us even once throughout the years, even though we are reputed to be the worst batch in the school.She makes us feel special when she calls us 'her special batch'.When other teachers leave you confused why you lost a mark,she clearly writes the point we have missed and sometimes writes extra points, we could have written even when she doesn't cut a mark!

All the descriptions would be incomplete if I don't tell this point, She teaches her subject in the best possible way and finishes her portions in the fastest time although she is too modest to accept all this.....She can never have a replacement and there will always be the empty spot in my life....I am at the  least happy that she has been with me for this long......

It is make or break without  her now. I don't know how to go about studying with the other teachers.....must be the same way because it is the best way.I remember it yesterday,everything was going in the wrong way- The cat fight with my mom where she scratched my face (!) , the horrible 'surprise' my friends gave me , the detention I got during my games for not bringing my racquet  and forgetting to call my parents and informing that it would get late after the movie.........but somehow at the end of the day , her leaving the school disturbed me the most......leaving a pit in my stomach,fear in my heart and a confusion in my brain....

                                      Please don't leave.......... 

                                      I don't have anymore ace up my sleeve  

                                     I am very sorry , I am just sick with worry!

Miss if you read this please don't change your decision I am just a bit fuzzed up that's all. I will always wish the best for you. =)

- yours apologetically  yet  cheerfully yet sadly yet confusedly
 Samyuktha (semi)

A psychopath's - Diary entry

29.8.06
Saturday

I am confused.Really. I want to fight with her, but not ignore her! I also feel guilty about what I'm doing ,but I can't stop it! I am just blaming myself for what I am doing, I even know the solution but I'm not doing it, WHY? Why? WHY??? 
   I think it is my(self)ego. I don't want things to go smoothly...."a sailor sails best when his ship is sinking" , I need pressure .I don't like my parents,friends who are always nice with me! I want the world to be BAD,so that I am good!
" I DONT LIKE ANYONE ON EARTH!" I can't be equal to anyone! Man, I can't put myself inside a single category! Am I not BAD? I am confused. Really.

I was going through a pile of old stuff when I noticed an A4 sheet full of words....I decided to take a closer look and got this stuff! I am not telling who has written it as I don't know who really wrote it [ ;) ] ........I was shocked at the writer's lack of optimism , arrogance and that attitude! OMG! I couldn't bear it! SO, I'm sharing my cynicism with you guys!


The style of the writer seems to be nice, The style of matching the first 4 words with the last 4 is really good. When moving on to the next line 'I want to fight with her not ignore her'  shows so much egoism and arrogance that I pity that poor friend who got stuck with the writer!
The next line offers some solace by stating that the writer IS guilty of what they are doing! BUT, The immediate phrase shows the helplessness and lack of control of temper of that writer who frankly states that they can't control it!




'I am just blaming myself for what I am doing, I even know the solution but I'm not doing it, WHY? Why? WHY??? '


The next phrase shows the quality of self harassment or at least self punishment as I get to know that they are blaming themselves for whatever stupid row they had with their friend!
When a person does know the solution and doesn't follow it it is called 'foolishness', 'over pride' and adamant behavior.....I do pity that person for the frustration they are inducing on themselves!






 The explanation the person give for their strange contradicting behavior is 'I think it is my(self)ego. I don't want things to go smoothly...."a sailor sails best when his ship is sinking" , I need pressure .I don't like my parents,friends who are always nice with me! '
This is the frankest and the most sadistic confession I have read in my life.....I am seriously now doubting that the writer is a self harmer. 'I need pressure'!  shows all symptoms of it. Most likely suicidal patterns to succeed! Hating happiness and niceties shows an anti social pattern too..........


The last last lines suggest that the person is coming back to normal...pah....and ends up how they started -really confused!

What would I suggest them to do? 

• Goto a proper counselor and vent out their emotions.....
• Listen to the advice of the counselor
• Try an anger management course
• Do yoga
• To always carry that smile!! =) 
• Find the root cause of their anger/confusion/madness

After  writing this post my mother saw the A4 paper I saw the  text on.......she stated laughing uncontrollably! 

me: So it is you!!! who scribbled all this nonsense!

she: ( still laughing) nonono!! (again laughs)

me: AMMA!! plzz tell.....

she:(suppressing badly)  Don't you recognize that stupid style of starting and ending with the same phrase?

Shit!! It was me! .......................I will never ever believe I wrote such a kiddish entry...but that  'style is mine! is mine! Shit!!  It was me!

 moral of the story:

1. Never scribble anything crazy
2. Never forget to DISPOSE it.....:(
3. Don't prejudice anything until you know who wrote about it!

        By

Semi :D