A writer's woes...!

I am arguing with that?! 

It is a wide held perception that writers are lazy people ,ie, they do not perform any actual work.And that carrying bricks is a tougher job. Indeed , carrying bricks is a tough task - you need exceptional stamina and strength to perform it. Also, I am not going to be this negative person who discredits such tasks , but this positive being , who dis/credits her own task =)

Vaguely looking , it seems as though a writer has NO restrictions or worries. Just take a paper and produce stuff. Bang! BANG! I advice you  get powerful spectacles immediately. A writer does have a hell lot of choices to pick from (even that is a disadvantage) and there are a lot of invisible constraints too. We will come to that later ( Haha! I sound like my textbook =P )

The biggest dilemma a writer can have , in today's world is - dependency on technology. How much should a person depend upon the technology to carry him/her through? This is a tricky and a surprisingly old question.Human beings always approach changes cautiously (translated as 'negatively') and once upon a time, even Gutenberg's printing press was restricted to printing bibles only . Also , as we are humans ;) , we just cannot give up old habits and it is agreeably very sad. Example - Surely there is a sense of guilt , regret and loss , when we see the old VCR's , cassettes , CD's , floppies and gramophones. Call me the nxg , but I feel guilty when I look at paper! I do all my creative work in the blogger draft board nowadays , coz it auto saves whatever is typed second by second.Being a humanities student , there isn't much notes to write...and when I do write exams , I don't have the time to adore my handwriting or the crispiness of the paper lol. Deep inside , I know that my best works are always done on paper.Call it prejudice , I don't care. Paper is just liberating in its own way! 

There is also the question of how much of luxury a writer can enjoy. Auto spell check is mandatory but is the feature where the PC guesses words for you , while writing is acceptable? Some questions are for you to answer. At the end of the day , a 'true' writer , atleast my version , writes for self satisfaction.Yes, I AM happy when my work is applauded by others...but when I am not 100% happy about a post and it goes on to create sensations all over the world (not like it actually happened :P) - there is still that feeling of 'not done enough' in one corner of the heart. Hope you get it. I can go on and on about technology - then it would become another post.

A writer has other issues as well. Self doubts can bog you down more than the heaviest brick on your head.Currently I have twenty posts in draft form and I feel uneasy to release even ONE. 'Will it be cool enough for the teenagers? ' 'AND be matured enough for the older beings?' - you never know. Extra pressure on me because as my name suggests , I pride myself on maintaining the balance , though at times I feel like I am falling short of this goal -outrageously . Then there is the issue of the concept of blog itself - it is about an individual's views. After a point ,  do people really care about one person's views/problems/ life? After  writing that line I feel lesser inclined to post this post.

The only way is forward!

Then there is the question of niche and complacency. It is tough enough to find your own style/individuality in the universe . It is tougher to keep on updating , modifying and maturing. At one point, you feel super saturated (science =P) and don't want to welcome changes , even when you know that stagnation is always around the corner.
That's why I envy Kid in the front row , he keeps on experimenting.He doesn't mind if one post falls short , atleast he did something new! His niche is to inspire others and blog about writing and cinema as an art. Yet, he does so much more than that. One day I want to be like him =) Tough ask but I will do my best.
We are bound by restrictions , which initially appears non - existent. For example , I cannot rest in peace if I post only 2 lines on my blog as a post.The lines may sum up what I want to say and may even be PERFECT. But No , I don't care about that! A blog post in my head should have lots of words - for words are all I have to take your breath away =P Blame it on writing too many history answers...

Also , there is always this feeling that I shouldn't use 'bad' words in my posts (unlike how I talk/text) Its not just because my parents read my blog :P , but because of this voice in the head or instinct as we call it, that tells me that some may squirm in their seats if I go overboard with the language. This doesn't make me any less cooler or awesome than a few seconds back. B|
Finally, as writing is getting more professional by the day , I am obliged to 'edit' my posts and to go further than the first draft. Being an I-need-a-spark to kindle the fire or a spur of the moment writer it feels weird...I am trying to adapt - but not wholeheartedly - I admit. According to my view , the first draft must surely retain at least 80% of its content...but writing is not mathematics and figures don't always works. Every writer must choose for themselves.
OK enough. I have scared you enough already with the uncertainty of things in this world...( For I am shivering now) However , you can see that I take writing way to seriously xD So , chill! I will never feed you with consciously bad posts :P And excuse me for exceeding the general word limit by LIGHT years......!

Yours truly
Semi