Hope springs eternal they say
Only for those who bloom with sunshine
It didn’t
Give me a rope already
To hang ‘out’ with.
How can
Snaps and flashes of happy
Really compensate for this life
Which is so crappy?
Tell me really
I am trying so hard
To things not to get under my skin
Maybe a dark soul I am
For nefarious I feel
A true villain I am.
Insatiated with my genesis and growth &
Too proud to acknowledge my misery
I still give it company
I don’t want to give into this darkness
Where I seem to navigate seamlessly
When I see a happy person
I wanna dent their teeth and
Wipe that elusive smile off it
Thinking that I grit mine
And flash a fake smile and move
So what is the end you may ask?
To fit in by killing my self or
To stand out by killing myself?
Maybe it is to simply wait for a tomorrow
And hope that hope springs from within
ha...no killing is any good i think, much better to grow out of this like that sapling does towards a future sun...the Words have Power...wow...
ReplyDeleteThank you :) hoping for that
DeleteI guess coping is better than killing... sooner or later all will be better.
ReplyDeleteVery well written! Expressive.
ReplyDeleteThanks :)
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ReplyDeleteThank u :)
Deletewhy did u remove the comment though?
Beautifully penned :)
ReplyDeleteThank u sanaa :)
DeleteWell, many people who fail at suicide live to be glad of it.
ReplyDeleteThat is a good point
DeleteInsatiated with my genesis and growth &
ReplyDeleteToo proud to acknowledge my misery
I still give it company
Most times one feels like giving up. Very true Samyuktha. Perhaps just play along hoping it'll solve by itself for the better.
Hank
playing well.
DeleteThis definitely is one of your best!
ReplyDeleteEspecially this :
"To fit in by killing my self or
To stand out by killing myself?"
Keep up the poet in you :)
Thanks!
DeleteThat means a lot , coming from a regular reader like you! :)
To fit in by killing my self or
ReplyDeleteTo stand out by killing myself?
Wonderful lines. And yeah killing is no good and Hope is a good thing.
Hope is a good thing :)
DeleteIn tough times, I always told myself "it will get better. Hang on." And it always did! I like your strong closing, the hope that hope will spring from within. Trust me, it will!
ReplyDeleteThis isn't exactly a view of hope--except maybe to opt for a little more life. That may actually be a big deal, to opt for more life!
ReplyDeleteReading this again, it seems to echo what some of us have been saying over at earthweal about our disgust with false hope. May we find the authentic kind instead!
ReplyDeleteThis too will pass. One day you will look back at this, and realised what you learned in getting through this.
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