A writer's woes...!

I am arguing with that?! 

It is a wide held perception that writers are lazy people ,ie, they do not perform any actual work.And that carrying bricks is a tougher job. Indeed , carrying bricks is a tough task - you need exceptional stamina and strength to perform it. Also, I am not going to be this negative person who discredits such tasks , but this positive being , who dis/credits her own task =)

Vaguely looking , it seems as though a writer has NO restrictions or worries. Just take a paper and produce stuff. Bang! BANG! I advice you  get powerful spectacles immediately. A writer does have a hell lot of choices to pick from (even that is a disadvantage) and there are a lot of invisible constraints too. We will come to that later ( Haha! I sound like my textbook =P )

The biggest dilemma a writer can have , in today's world is - dependency on technology. How much should a person depend upon the technology to carry him/her through? This is a tricky and a surprisingly old question.Human beings always approach changes cautiously (translated as 'negatively') and once upon a time, even Gutenberg's printing press was restricted to printing bibles only . Also , as we are humans ;) , we just cannot give up old habits and it is agreeably very sad. Example - Surely there is a sense of guilt , regret and loss , when we see the old VCR's , cassettes , CD's , floppies and gramophones. Call me the nxg , but I feel guilty when I look at paper! I do all my creative work in the blogger draft board nowadays , coz it auto saves whatever is typed second by second.Being a humanities student , there isn't much notes to write...and when I do write exams , I don't have the time to adore my handwriting or the crispiness of the paper lol. Deep inside , I know that my best works are always done on paper.Call it prejudice , I don't care. Paper is just liberating in its own way! 

There is also the question of how much of luxury a writer can enjoy. Auto spell check is mandatory but is the feature where the PC guesses words for you , while writing is acceptable? Some questions are for you to answer. At the end of the day , a 'true' writer , atleast my version , writes for self satisfaction.Yes, I AM happy when my work is applauded by others...but when I am not 100% happy about a post and it goes on to create sensations all over the world (not like it actually happened :P) - there is still that feeling of 'not done enough' in one corner of the heart. Hope you get it. I can go on and on about technology - then it would become another post.

A writer has other issues as well. Self doubts can bog you down more than the heaviest brick on your head.Currently I have twenty posts in draft form and I feel uneasy to release even ONE. 'Will it be cool enough for the teenagers? ' 'AND be matured enough for the older beings?' - you never know. Extra pressure on me because as my name suggests , I pride myself on maintaining the balance , though at times I feel like I am falling short of this goal -outrageously . Then there is the issue of the concept of blog itself - it is about an individual's views. After a point ,  do people really care about one person's views/problems/ life? After  writing that line I feel lesser inclined to post this post.

The only way is forward!

Then there is the question of niche and complacency. It is tough enough to find your own style/individuality in the universe . It is tougher to keep on updating , modifying and maturing. At one point, you feel super saturated (science =P) and don't want to welcome changes , even when you know that stagnation is always around the corner.
That's why I envy Kid in the front row , he keeps on experimenting.He doesn't mind if one post falls short , atleast he did something new! His niche is to inspire others and blog about writing and cinema as an art. Yet, he does so much more than that. One day I want to be like him =) Tough ask but I will do my best.
We are bound by restrictions , which initially appears non - existent. For example , I cannot rest in peace if I post only 2 lines on my blog as a post.The lines may sum up what I want to say and may even be PERFECT. But No , I don't care about that! A blog post in my head should have lots of words - for words are all I have to take your breath away =P Blame it on writing too many history answers...

Also , there is always this feeling that I shouldn't use 'bad' words in my posts (unlike how I talk/text) Its not just because my parents read my blog :P , but because of this voice in the head or instinct as we call it, that tells me that some may squirm in their seats if I go overboard with the language. This doesn't make me any less cooler or awesome than a few seconds back. B|
Finally, as writing is getting more professional by the day , I am obliged to 'edit' my posts and to go further than the first draft. Being an I-need-a-spark to kindle the fire or a spur of the moment writer it feels weird...I am trying to adapt - but not wholeheartedly - I admit. According to my view , the first draft must surely retain at least 80% of its content...but writing is not mathematics and figures don't always works. Every writer must choose for themselves.
OK enough. I have scared you enough already with the uncertainty of things in this world...( For I am shivering now) However , you can see that I take writing way to seriously xD So , chill! I will never feed you with consciously bad posts :P And excuse me for exceeding the general word limit by LIGHT years......!

Yours truly
Semi

Heart tunes ~

This conniving weather is bad. It has lulled us  into sleep which we never can catch and has made our enthusiasm into bitterness and made us a bunch of bored and unpleasant teenagers.... - more than ever!! This occasional rain...and the ever present moisture in the air which is silently screaming "Sleep. Sleep" is just awesomely creepy.

All the 'pairs' either seem to be breaking up or getting caught , which directly leads them to be broken up. Guys! Be careful. Studies have again taken a backseat. Obviously. The cycle tests are OVER. Term exams are a month away.......jobless times for students. So please don't be surprised by the sharp inflation in the number of fights , tears and the hugs (which invariably come later)  which happen at this time of the year. Also ,  the prices have shot up over the sky. No , this is not about flaunting my GK skills alone. The power / electricity costs have increased by 110 - 120% , which means a frown on my mother's face when I switch on the computer and the bus passengers receive TWO tickets for their fare. Yes , the prices have doubled.
All this mood development is to prove that the atmosphere - geographically and socially - is very negative. So negative that you can feel the static electricity all over you! ( Few may call it mosquito) . It is no wonder that a simple , catchy and a generally abusive song became a hit! Yes. All the tamil people out in the world are singing aloud ' Why this Kolaveri Di' by the one and only Dhanush!

How is the gear change, machi?
Now everyone wants to know the meaning of 'kolaveri' . It simply means 'a fury to kill' or something like that. So , the line means 'Why do you have this deadly fury , girl?' So , all the heartbroken people out there have embraced the song. Haha. The rest of the song is mostly English(!) - so please interpret. What makes the song tick is Dhanush's raw voice. It seems very accessible and even I want to join in with him and complete the song! Watching a song being a made has never been this interesting - Rajinikanth's Daughter and Kamal haasan's daughter in the same studio xO <3 , the cute music director who looks as though he just came out off school and of course Dhanush.

This Bad!

I must say that , once upon a time Dhanush was highly unattractive. People were impressed - only by his guts to come to acting with such a body. A very thin excuse for an actor! The story of his films were good and his boy next door image gave him some stability. Soon , he married Aishwarya - the superstar's daughter xO , won the national award and got a stylist - or at least a sense of it. What has been impressive is his humility and foot to the earth approach - surely learnt from the superstar, one would note. And he has just royally replaced Simbu , is arch rival to become the hottest singer in town.

One must say that Simbu , STR or whatever he call himself is not bad. He only started the idea of understandable lyrics - sung by the hero himself routine. However , as he found himself multitasking acting , direction , dance and everything else in one go we don't see a lot of anything! We do accept that he has taken to singing very seriously - lending his voice to various films and singles over the years. So , the now his voice his not quite that remarkable :P

No one denies that 'Evan di unna pethan' rocked the charts. However his obsession with himself saw him patronize himself in a song about his 'pondatti' or (wife) !   So the situation is pro - Dhanush now. However , no one knows if Dhanush and Simbu are competing at all or if all this a mirage created by weary people in need of the juicy gossip.
I wrote all this without glancing at cinema plus or Sify - I rock! =P I must admit that I haven't updated myself with all the latest gossip though. Everything sounds the same and made up to my expert ears. So basically what I say is this - when my whole personal life is messed up , I look at the magazines and thank god that I have only blood hungry dogs chasing after me and not news hungry reporters....*aargh*
Still depressed? Hear this :

I Love you . I miss you. I need you

I cannot believe it. I am writing a lot . What is  even more unbelievable is - nothing seems to be coming on my blog. So , "I have decided to prove my loyalty to you my blog" ( Yes ,its called 'animism' - interacting with inanimate objects. I haven't matured have I? )







So Dear blog! I have decided to tell you the story you should surely know about - how you were created and evolved! I know you may not hear or comprehend me - for you are still an infant - 1 year and 7 months old (already).
It was on April 26 I still remember. It was the stage in summer holidays when I did 'nothing' throughout the day. As easy as it may sound , it is TOUGH to do nothing throughout the day. So , there I was googling 'how to gain weight' and all the other seemingly impossible stuff. Then out of nowhere - like how life was created - I typed 'blog' on the search bar.

The mother of all creations.

Without knowing a thing about you ,I decided to create you - be happy. If I had known what the button 'create blog' would have done to my life , I would surely have shown more excitement. But , I was not to know. All I saw was this mundane work station , where you needed to type something...
I would never know why I selected the topic of my first post on you to be 'Mafia Wars'! Maybe because it is the coolest game ever , maybe because I want to marry a Don when I grow up (soon) or maybe because that was the only thing interesting in my life then . As far as first attempts go - it was the WORST. (haha, now everyone would want to read it >.<)
Your name was 'Brainwaves Unlimited' then. Those were tough days for both of us....I didn't know a single thing about raising a blog  and not many people were concerned enough to look after/at us. However you weren't born to be left to compete. I just wrote what I felt like and still do. Somewhere along the way I created your twin/alter ego/brother the 'Perceptions' . You actually became jealous after a point of time - I wrote more from my heart there and from my brain here. Along the way , I realized that having the two of you gave me lesser views and reduced posts in each blog , so I magically combined you both.
That moment must stay put in my memory for a long time to come. For , I had just created my own brand :P 'Semi's Stories and Sharings........!' . As kiddish and over alliterated as it sounds it held on. Here my blog , you must acknowledge the role of your father - FACEBOOK. He was the proud daddy showing off his kids in the best possible way - statuses , wall posts . chat , groups , page.... you name it he did it.
You don't know what you brought in to my life. Happiness , more page views ( =P ) , recognition , pride , the satisfaction of doing something useful for the first time in my entire life , an almost unhealthy dose of positivist feed backs from my friends  and the much needed style sense without which , I could never dress you in all those custom templates.

I remember your first b'day . You were all I fretted about throughout the day. Sadly , I was on top of a mountain somewhere in Mamandur , trekking mountains and collecting anecdotes to dote you with .BVM friends , CV ppl , KFI teachers , familial relations , fellow bloggers and the net users - you have improved my relations with everyone. I even joined the ill famed TWITTER for your sake. In the minimum - you at least provided me with topics I could debate about when I felt weird and an Identity which I very much need.
'SemiSharings' as I affectionately call you - you are the best thing I have clicked into in my life , the only thing I care most about , the first milestone I have crossed , you are my dear diary who tracks my progress as a writer and a person. You contain maybe many a masterpiece in the draft form and most importantly you are the first 'thing' I ever raised =*
What I am saying maybe cheesier than a margherita - yet I am saying it. I Love you . I miss you. I need you. See! You have even made my usual nonchalant and cool cover slip. For you , my darling...:P I am ready to expose my true self. The fact that you are a non living thing helps . A lot.

No , I am not drunk dear. I wrote all this for a reason ....I want you and all your aunts and uncles to understand that even if I post in you for only once in a month - you are the most important THING in my life and you will always be.
You are not the cloud but the sky itself =)

Your mom , god and lover :P
Semi