Showing posts with label insecurities. Show all posts
Showing posts with label insecurities. Show all posts

Sunday, April 11, 2021

The lines we crossed






Clenching till
My molar broke
And puss pour
Still biting down the pain
Of the secrets of yesterday

A peerless phantom
An invisible limp
The line you cross to know me

She shrugged.
A sardonic hmph
Was what my secret amounted to.

Felt relieved & reviled simultaneously somehow!
What now?

Thursday, May 7, 2020

What once was



  



We are plagued by memories

By what once was

Ours to cherish

But not cherished.

 

To collaborate with &

Not compete against.

To break a for given bond

Without any thought given

Absent mindedly

Like how dusts of disinterest and distance

Began to gather over us

Together.

 

But we are still friends,

Still as dead water.

Of silent tears

Which were (never) cried.

 


Saturday, January 18, 2020

Bottle Tree



Alas! 
I am just a glass bottle hanging from a tree, 
oscillating in an orbit of pain
to the tune of my circumstances.
My emotions are somewhere sealed
inside that airtight bottle,
I think they are transparent
But ofcourse!
They are actually invisible to the onlooker.
And he asks,
What are you a glass bottle doing
clinging on to a bare tree?
I'm better off with my fellow bottle mates.
But once our paths collide,
Won't we just crash and break 
and let loose that noxious subtance 
which man calls love and
I call pain?

Friday, August 2, 2019

Golden Brown


All the gloss , glitter and glue
Cannot photoshop the sheer phobia
Lurking right beneath her skin
Forming a palpable layer,
They attack her
Only when no one is watching.

She seems so bold
But is actually quite brittle
Her quiet melancholy
Muddled by her extensive cacophony.




She is indeed a prisoner of her own device
Trapped in bravado
She just wants to cry.
Yet when her man is watching
She cannot let him see
If the truth is really exposed
Won’t he just flee?

Better to break it off
And be the bitch
Than take it off
And be his bitch.

Of course it is all very problematic
But who are we to judge?
We all mask our frail insecurities
 marinate them with worry &
deep fry it till it becomes golden brown.